Earthquake hits Manila (7/26/2011)

I was on shift (graveyard) when suddenly around 1:18 AM I felt the office is sharing. I am on the 32nd floor of one of the tall buildings in Ortigas. When the movement continued for few more seconds, I uttered to myself "earthquake" while other officemates were in commotion as well. The swaying really took about 60 - 90 seconds in my rough estimates and it was scary.

I was scared. It was the first time I experienced like that. The hanging wall clocks were swaying too and my head started to feel stange that after, I really felt dizzy. I was worried for my team mate too as just minute before the earthquake he went down to buy food. I was thinking what if he was stuck in the elevator.

Also, as one of the emergency marshals at work, I also have to remember my duties as such. I stood up and look for the other people in the office and started counting them. I waited for the guard to say if  we are to evacuate but it didnt have to happen as 3 mins after the shaking, everything went back to normal and people went back to work including me.

When my teammate was back, I asked him where was he during the earthquake and surprisingly he didnt feel it at all. Thankfully, at least I wont have to worry him getting stucked on the elevator.

Next thing I did was to send message to my close friends to inform and as if they are safe. Good thing, everyone is fine. I did not text my family yet as I do not want them to worry. I research the net, try to check phivolcs site but it was down. Some people have already blog the event as well. Then, I stumble to the US Geo site http://earthquake.usgs.gov/earthquakes/recenteqsww/Quakes/usc00053yd.php#details.

It was indeed a strong one. I just hope, there was no casualty.

Philvolcs have updated their site too: http://volcano.phivolcs.dost.gov.ph/update_SOEPD/2011_Earthquake_Bulletins/July/2011_0725_1715_B1.htm


Unexpected (4/3/2010)

I do believe that life would give one so many surprises. Kinda the thought on "expect the unexpected". Life is amazingly surprising and unpredictable. Things will just happened and sometimes, they always do not go according to my plan or your plan.

Just few days ago, I recieved a text from an unknown number. The message was simply "hi" so I replied "helo" and ask "May I know who is this?". To my delight or I mean surprise, she was the current girlfriend of my ex way back 3rd year college. This ex of mine, we were ok, I mean we're friends or I thought so. Just last year he was saying about his feelings still for me but knew that I'm committed to somebody. He found it hard to move on, that's what he said. I even asked him, "would it help If I won't communicate with you?", to which he answered "No, he will do it himself when he is ready and still want our commnunication". Of course, he is a friend for me, a dear friend and I'd only wish, we would be friends still no matter what had happened to us in the past. I even shared to him just like a brother how my lovelife currently is on the verge of breaking down and how I'm hanging on to it struggling. Just like brother, friend.

I thought it was ok. But then, around Feb this year, I recieved a text message from his number though the message was from somebody else. The message was for me stop bothering them so I asked who was on the other side sending me message to which he replied, "don't mind the text, sorry for the disturbance". So I forgot about it. About a week after that incident, another text again, more harsh saying i am destroying their lives. I thought it was unfair for me because I am doing nothing. So I asked the guy again, if who was that texting me those stuffs. He just said "ignore it, don't mind". So I dropped my case but I felt being played by not a funny game.

Come March, another thext asking me to stop texting or communicating with the guy. I figured out it was something. Then I recieved a text from the guy asking me to stop texting him anymore. To which I replied, sure I wouldnt bother at all if it helps them and I would love to help them too. Like what I offered before just to help him move on. Case and Point. I already assume that the one texting me is a girlfriend of his wven without him telling me and I really have no intention to intrude into their relationship. What was for me, my relationship with the guy was just friendship after our break up years ago. Of course, I know the limitations of that friendship as I know we had a past and he still felt something for me as he said and I have a relationship.

Come 3rd week of March, I recieved a text from him. He was saying "wish you were here...". He was drinking and drunking as it sounded. So being a concerned person as I am, I replied and asked him what was wrong. He just replied, alcohol helped him momentarily to forget what he felt. So I asked him again, what is really wrong or did they broke up. I assumed from his not-straightforward-answer that it was what happened. I advised him that drinking himself to death does not lessen his problem or solve it. If they broke up, he could always try his best to do all he could do to resolve the issue. It is the obligation of the guy to at least give the effort in trying to solve issue in the relationship. Do the initiative. I said to him "how you won her before, you could use it again to win her back now". His response "I don't know what to do".

March 29 evening, I got a chance to open my facebook account. He popped up facebook chat message. Our felw lines.
H: Hello,
M: Hi,
H:Muzta? (how are you),
M: I'm ok, u?,
H: Fine, graveyard(pertaining to his duty schedule);
M: Good.
M: I mean good that you're fine. GTG (as I just hitched in my friends laptp and internet)

Surprisingly, the day after that I recieved that text I mentioned earlier. He mentioned her name, so I asked what could I do for her in the most friendly way I know. She replied "nothing, just want to thank you for giving him a piece of advice to win me back". She even added words like he really loves her because he did his best to win her  back. I eagerly replied, "no problem, I'm glad to help people in love and I'm glad you're both ok now". I said thesewords because it was intention the first place and indeed I was happy that they were okay. I thought it was reconciliation for her and for me though there is really nothing for me but I am happy if that would give her peace of mind.

The next things or texts messages that followed were totally unexpected.  I thought it was okay already when few moments later she texted again. So many words, basically her argument was that I am destroying their relationship whcih I really don't know how to answer, I'm innocent. I wanted to shout. At first, I was holding back my irritation on those crazy arguments she threw. I tried not to response even I really wanted but then, I've gone out of patience and replied to her insecurity issues.

When you're thrown a stone specially if you do not know where it was coming, when it hits you. It really hurts. That's I felt, I really don't know why am I causing her pain or her problems. I am innocent. So I defended myself. We exchange words but in my part I'm still trying my best to hold back emotions from her painful words. I know that she just was carried away by whatever emotions she felt. In the end, I felt tired of arguing, defending myself. It was actually pointless, she has a closed mind. All she has was anger, wrath and rage for me which I really was hurt. Why someone could hate me as such when Im doing nothing.

I realized, I shouldn't have responded to her arguments. I shouldn't have reciprocated her messages/insults/painful nothings. I just should have tried to understand whatever she moght be going through. But I am just human, I got hurt too. That was natural tendency to defend myself, any human would do. When are are being attacked. But then, all it got me was more insults, more harsh words and it hurts even more. I tried calm myself. I was i the office that time, so I have to focus too. From morning till afternoon, I continued recieving texts from her. I asked for God's wisdom in that moment and the guidance to respond to her. My last text for her that day was simply tothank her for the stones because at that time, those stones really made something for me. I never ever encountered that kind of situation in my life and somehow I survived it without crying as much as I would really like to.

That day was Good Monday, I attended a Lenten recollection that night and HE gave me the answer as to why something like that day happened to me. In preparation for my holiest week. The next day, going in peace to the office when all of a sudden around lunch time, she texted again.Much worst than yesterday, I felt opressed. Cursing words even. It's like I am a condemned criminal for her. It's really self-devastating but I remained calm, strong and understanding. With all the humility no matter how hard it was. I finally let out one last long text to her. It said there, I really wouldnt want to text or reply to her at all to avoid anymore arguments. The accumulations of pain on both sides while we continued to argue is just intolerable anymore. I kept thinking how to do it, be humble and ask for apology for a sin I know I didnt do. But I did. With all humility and kindness, I gave her forgiveness and I asked apology. She replied again, she didnt need my forgiveness. She hates me. That hurts.

I didnt reply anymore. I deleted their numbers. The connection and prayed they live in peace. Life gives us the unexpected, sometimes surprisingly great sometimes surprisingly troublesome. It's how we deal with it.


Reposting: Solar Halo in Cebu

Solar Halo in Cebu: When I Reached Home

May 7, 2010 around 12 noon, a friend texted me about a rainbow around the sun. I was able to read his message but I was very pre occupied as it was also the time that I reached our home in Borbon after almost five months. So I was really busy playing mith nephews and nieces and neglected the text though I read it but it did not sink in me.

I graduated Applied Physics and though I am not really a great physicist, I do love astronomy and the beauty of it. So when the thought finally sank in during the evening, I realized "what The!" I missed that scene. Yeah, I missed that BIG TIME. As In. Well, I guess I just have to move on and forget it. What happened happens. :)

So, I did some research on the said event, solar halo. It is said to be an optical phenomenon produced by ice crystals creating colored or white arcs and spots in the sky. This is due to light being reflected and refracted by the ice crystals and may split up into colors because of dispersion. The crystals behave like prisms and mirrors sending shafts of light in particular directions. Well, I'll not go on this post discussing about optics. That was basically it.

Being a scientist, I believe that was simply a scientific phenomenon and nothing more but as an optimistic individual plus a devout Christian I can't resist to believe that it was a vindication from above for the first automated election of our country, the Philippines that happened 3 days  after the appearance of Solar halo and I'm convinced because although the election really was not at all smooth but overall I can say it was successful, peaceful and hopefully, this is the start of a BETTER Philippines. I may sound like some super optimistic citizen but really there's no harm in trying. I believe the solar halo was something good.



MOONSTAR -: 05/16/2010

7:10 PM Manila time.

Was preparing myself, hurrying for mass @ San Roque Parish and bound for office afterward when Mama sent me a message asking me if I could see the moon. So I went to the kitchen window and searched for the moon, wooolaaahhh, what I found in the western evening sky was such a beautiful sight. Never saw it before. It was...


It made me wish I had my long-before-dream single lens reflector camera to capture it. SIGHS

It was a bright star sitting on the very tip top of the thin crescent moon but  the circular edge of the moon was visible too making the sight so spectacular on that early Sunday evening. I researched about it and it was not a star but actually planet Venus and the Moon very close together. If one would picture it out, it was like a ring with a shining stone. Okay, for the sake of this post, it was like a diamond ring. Some kinda "marry-me" ring. Thanks Ma, for texting me on time to share such a beautiful scene to behold.(HUGE GRIN)

I browsed and read through a lot of things on the net regarding this event as I was interested since my recent blog was about the appearance of solar halo in homeland Cebu last week and now this phenomena I personally call MOONSTAR and all over the country this time. I came across with the astronomical term occultation. Wiki defines occultation as an event that occurs when one object is hidden by another object that passes between it and the observer. There could be occultation by the moon, by planets or by asteroids.This case was By the MOON, I think. :D

It is said be not unusual for the moon to appear to pass close to Venus because this actually happens almost once a month. However, today was the longest time it was visible (I think) because in the past events, this is only visible short period after sunset (@twilight zone) and shortly before dawn according to research. So still, that sight is once in a blue moon for me. That crescent moon with a fully defined full-moon-edge passing by the planet Venus was just like a shining stone on a ring, and I can't get that picture out of my memory anymore. The fully define full-moon-edge is because the moon is becoming full each day.

Now, people would always ask for meaning. Some commented it was a bad sign, a sign of WAR, chaos and troubles. Some wished it was a positive sign that the Filipino people should be united and start over again after the long awaited first automated election. My opinion as a physicist and as a citizen is that astronomical phenomenon like this do happens and Science really could explain it but to hope that this event is a sign of a better Philippines isn't bad if that would help us to become better citizens and a country worth living for. Hoping is never bad. It depends on how we see things right? So let's have that positive outlook for a brighter tomorrow.

As a BELIEVER of the ONE who allow the beautiful sight to be seen and I would like to repeat about that "marry-me" diamond ring metaphor of that I so called MOONSTAR, He was asking us people to marry HIM. Of course, not the literal marry but HE is asking us to go back to HIM and believe that the Philippines could be BETTER because with HIM, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. :)



How many lives will you change this year?

"Do you where you're going to?" - This is a line of famous song that I usually sing when I feel no where to go, when I feel stopped at something I want or I thought I should do.

Often times, life gets empty - that is like when you're playing Chess and You are CHECKMATE. When there are no more moves left. Then began the question 'WHY I am here?'. What is the purpose of my being? When life seems to get tougher and confusing.

I've really been there and at times still there and probably will be back there. However, optimistic as I am, I always find reason, a point, a step that could perhaps lead me to go on. And always, it's because, I know, many people need me, my family and probably some other people.

At the beginning of 2010, I felt the loneliest days of my life.I was alone, and I was trying to fight from all the sadness, emptiness, longingness Im feeling deep inside. Indeed, the whole 2010 was a big bunch of trials of my life. Maybe because I'm old enough to handle many things or because it's part of growth.

Now. It's mid 2011, not that lonely or sad anymore. I seem to find the reason to move on or to be strong or to look forward. The fact that a single smile from me could change somebody else's life. The hope that, by being strong I'll be abe to inspire the weak. The believe that I, as simple and ordinary as I am, could make a difference. I want to touch lives, to give hope, to bring light.

How about you? How many lives will you change this year? Is it for the better? How about in your lifetime, how many people will you touch?

x.o.x.o RoseHyacinth



VERY GOOD! I remember when I was a toddler, every time i receive this praise phrase i was very very happy. Being good is a nice feeling and the addition of VERY makes the adjective good, way more pleasing. Then I found out that there is better. That better is way way more than just good. And it didn't end there, you are still not on top if you are just better and not the best. 

never let it rest
until the good becomes better
and better becomes the BEST.

I am afraid to be called the bad one. All my life, I tried to be a good person, a good daughter, a good friend, a good sister, a good neighbor, a good student. I always strive to be good and I mean not just good but the best in everything I do, in everywhere I am. But life never failed to teach me that I could not please everyone. That no matter what, life will always have two faces, because after all, nobody is PERFECT.

So I began asking myself, Is it really worth it being good when I know that there would always be people who will think I'm bad? Yeah, and sometimes I do belong to that. Admittedly, sometimes or perhaps more often, people tend to be judgmental and I am included in that list of people. There was a point when I always compare myself to other people, to those around me and I end up, always I end up finding flaws in other people and lifting up my own chair just to boost me, to cover the bitterness perhaps.

Growing up is never easy. Never easy. But fortunately, I have or I believe, life has taught me golden lessons. First, never compare myself with other. My greatest competition is myself. As the words of desiderata said "there would always be a greater and a lesser person than I am. I am humbled seeing people on the street, homeless and pennyless because I know somehow even if I consider myself poor, I still have house to live. Whenever I see rich people, I shouldn't envy recalling those people in the street, I still feel fortunate. At times, I will feel big and at times I will feel small. Be good in myself, be better than myself and be the best I can be.  That the greatest thing is to remain humble in prosperity and keeping one's feet on the ground. 

Second, I do not have the right to judge others. It's a shame. When you judged as much as you don't want to be judged. At this point in my life, I figure out that each person I met or even I walked pass by have different stories, unique in every way. When I thought that my life story is great, I should never forget that other people think their life stories too are great. Each one of us have different threshold of happiness, pain, joy, sorrows, success and failure. I learned that before I get irritated with the woman who stepped on my foot in the MRT, I should consider that perhaps she is in a hurry due to a life and death situation. That at any point in time, I could be the one who stepped on someone's foot too. I learned a lot. I grew a lot. And I say, the golden rule "do not do unto others what you do not want others do unto you" is really applicable in life if we just...  

Third, never complain. Simply never complain instead count my blessings. Yeah, the tendency is at the hardest times in our lives, we always ask "Why me?". But I discovered that I have been more than blessed to  complain at the few times I was down. It's a shame again. So now, before my mind cry out loud complains at tough times, Im diverting it  to those times I feel surreal, those times I feel very blessed. I did not complain when my father died during my last year in college even when I know that was his very dream to see his precious child with a college diploma, yes I was sad and asking but I never complained because I wouldnt have been in that 5th year of college if I wasnt blessed with scholarship, with generous people. Never complain, instead I counted my blessings.

Fourth, everything has to serve a purpose. Just as pigs are raised just to have pork meat to eat. I recalled when I was 5 or 6, I cried when our hog was slaughtered for the fiesta and remembered asking my grandfather "why do we have to feed them when in the end we'd kill them"  to which he smilingly replied "that served its purpose". Yes, everything has a purpose and everything that happened or is happening got to serve a purpose. It could be the purpose of what has been done before or there could be something more in that.All I believe is that in all I've been going through in the 23 years of my existence has its own purpose. The same as John 3:16, for God so love the world that He gave us His only son. Why would HE give His only begotten son? For us, because He loves us. 

Fifth, I cannot please everyone. So why do I go on being good knowing I could not please everyone? Simply because I only want to please SOMEONE. That someone who makes me someone too. The back end of my existence. I am SOMEone because of this SOMEONE and it's HIM I want to please so I keep doing GOOD, strive to be BETTER than who I am and hoping to be the BEST that I can be. IN HIS TIME not mine. IN HIS WAYS not mine.

I didn't not say lastly because, life still goes on, yeah, for me because I LIVE.


Note: Transferred from sfrohya blog.